I am really pissed off today. Really really pissed off. Today I went to get my hair fixed to the new agent's specifications. I was under the impression I would get at least some say in what I would look like, but no , apperently not. I dont give a fuck what they say, there are working models with blonde hair, black hair, short hair, long, BAH BAH BAH. I find it retarded that I absolutely MOST LOOK EXACTLY to some idea he has to be succesful.
he wanted to cut my hair. That was okay. he wanted to change my white blonde hair, I was like, okay. i have scalp psoraisis anyway and the shit was giving me bleeding open sores on my head last time I did mny roots. I liked blonde but I also like black hair and black hair doesnt give me bleeding sores. HE WANTED TO GIVE ME DARK BROWN HAIR. The most BORING fucking color there is. I asked if black would be okay and they were like ABSOLUTELY NOT BLACK WILL LOOK HIDIOUS but dark brown is WHAT you NEEEED. How in the FUCK does that make sense? Its almost the same thing but black would make ME happy and dark brown would make me MISERABLE.
what happened was it did indeed come out black. The guy who did was like , " oh , it'll fade when you wash it later, then it'll be perfect". oh yeah, it'll fade alright. You fucking watch it fade. Its black now and it'll stay that way as long as I have a say in the matter and access to Manic Panic Raven dye.He technically did a good job, but was very unproffesional the way he did it and just plain annoying. he was also telling me about how he worked with janice dickenson, found naima more when she was still working as a coffee slave, has met Kate Moss ect ect ect. if this is true then for he should have the money to get his damn teeth fixed. Shit motherfucker, I've never seen a worse mouht in my life. no teeth in the front except a couple of broken ones to the side that look like fangs and the rest yellow. i get the impression that may or may not have been a result of violence in his home country in latin america, but come on. DENTURES. Their'rde not even that expensive. Not like implanted fake teeth.
they also obviously dyed my eyebrows. I fucking hate them. More then anything. I like my new hair [ with no thanks to them] but these eyebrows are disgusting. They were saying that they actually wanted them be BUSHIER, like some stupid eurotrash secratary at a mud spa or some other shit rich people buy. Like Brooke Sheilds. Fuck brooke sheilds for started that trend. I hope a fat hairy black caterpillar crawls on her face while she's sleeping and trys to fuck her forehead thinking it's a mating swarm. And fuck agyness deyn for re-enforcing it. They were talking about making me have her look. She wants to look like a man that's her deal, last I checked I have tits though so I dont think that's going to work out for me even if someone tried.
I asked if I could make them just a LITTLE thinner and got a half-hour lecture about how this is "what the industry wants" and " it's not personal" and basically telling me that if I'm not going to be able to follow instructions and be stubborn I'm not going to be able to do much in the industry. yes, i understand this. I also know and understand then are thousand of freakin models out there. I doubt my eyebrows are going to be a dealbreaker on the type of people who are going to want to work with me and the ones who would have a huge objection with it would properly want a Brooke Sheilds anyway. I am not giving up total control of my image to ANYONE. Because I DONT NEED TO. Like I said before there are so many girls out there, they can pass on me if they dont like my vibe. I dont have shaved off eyebrows [ as much as I dearly wish I did] and blue streaks in my hair with half of it shaved off anymore and I am WELL into the realm of mainstream....able. Not mainstream, but mainstreamable. I dont need to look like a complete dilweed.
What is it that people find so fascinating with that look anyway? the fucking "high-school-brown-hair-no-makeup-soccer-practice-after-school-american-teen" ideal anyway? Most of those people are just white trash in better neighborhoods and more expensive schools instead of the trailor park. And their're about the most pissant elitist judgemental little bitchs you can ever hope to meet.
Anyways yeah, black hair. This finally gives me the excuse the buy a head of dread extensions that I was thinking of. yes; dreads.